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Quotes on awakenings: early awareness and first experiences

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Betty, born 1919

I knew at the age of 12 that I was a lesbian. I didn't know the word but everybody was getting interested in boys and I thought they were silly.



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Charlotte, born 1930

Nobody ever said that I was a homosexual or a lesbian or said anything to my face. It was just real hurtful. Nobody talked about anything at home; they knew what was going on and everybody kept everything a damn secret.


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Bev, born 1930
When I was maybe eleven or twelve, I began to notice that I wasn't starting to think of boys as my friends were. I was focusing on women and girls as objects of my affection. I knew that this had to be terribly wrong. I was very worried. And my one desire, if I just had enough money, was to talk to the doctor. He could fix what was broken.


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Saundra, born 1937
One night, I was just sitting there by myself, watching people come and go. One time, she came in and said she had been out on a date with a man. She said, “Oh, I just can’t stand it. He wanted to paw me. I just can’t stand men anyway. I don’t know why I’m going out with him. As a matter of fact, I like women.” Well, we had never had that kind of conversation. I was a little taken aback by her remarks, but intrigued by them as well. I was maybe 19 or 20, and I was intrigued by what the ramifications of her remarks were, or could be.


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Jess, born 1918
I don’t remember the exact circumstances, but I knew there was a women’s bar. I thought, “No way.” I hadn’t even known what a lesbian was. But I went. I crept into this bar. The end of the bar was close to the road, and I’d slide into a seat there. The rest of the bar was full of women, and I was scared to death somebody would say something to me. But I got friendly with the bartender, so that was a safe place. Nobody ever came and talked to me, or anything. I began to feel safe with them, and that was good.



Anonymous, born 1934
When I was five years old, I lived in the back of this boarding house and I could scoot out of the house and nobody would know I was gone. I would get out and go up the block and across the street to the third house. If I got there early enough, the woman would put me in the bathtub with her daughter. And I would go for it. I don't know whether I was dirty or not. I probably was but that's beside the point! Oh man, I liked girls.


Anonymous, born 1932
When you're eleven or twelve, you don't know that this isn't perfectly normal. You don't know there is anything different or unusual about liking girls.


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